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[She hadn't expected her to get there this quickly, honestly, and so she's still rubbing at her eyes when Nightingale gets there. Silently, she scoots over on the bed so she can have a spot.]

[she immediately just sits down and hugs her. words are less important than hugs right now.]

[almost reflexively, she leans slightly so her head is leaning on nightingale's shoulder, taking a deep breath. her voice sounds thick and watery when she speaks.]

I h-hate this. I hate them so much.

[She runs her hand through Natalie's hair.]

I know. I do too.

You'll see him again.

[the gesture helps, but she has to blink rapidly a few times to stop herself from crying. she shakes her head.]

You can't - you can't say that. It doesn't always work out fine in the end, sometimes bullshit just happens and it's not... There's no point to it.

... Okay.

[She's just gonna hug her close and keep petting her hair, then.]

Then, I'll do everything in my power to let you see him again.

[she pauses, with another low apology mumbled out, as she rubs a hand over her face again.]

I thought... I really thought it might be different this time.

[Kisses her forehead...]

I'm sorry.

[she shakes her head, more at what nightingale says than the gesture.]

It's... It's not okay, but - you don't have to be.

... I know. But you're hurting.

[just. keeps petting her hair.]

...I just want him back.

[she shifts until her knees are pressed to her chest, almost protectively.]

[That just gets her to hold her a little closer.]

... I know.

I just... I want all of this to be over. I'm tired of getting attached to places like this, where they leave all the time. I miss Silver and Aoko, I miss...

[Quickly, she scrubs at her eyes again.]

I-I miss everyone. I'm sorry. I should be used to it by now, but I just... I really cared about him.

[She shakes her head.]

I don't think it's possible to get used to this. I miss them too.

...I just wish we could leave together. I wish neither of us had to deal with this. I hate this, I...

[She takes another breath in, running a hand through her hair to try and calm herself down.]

... I know.

[but she pulls away to look right into Opal's eyes.]

But... Even if we can't leave together, even if we get separated, I promise, I will find you again. I won't let us be separated for long.

[upon realizing what she's saying, she reaches to take one of nightingale's hands. her first thought is 'please don't leave me', but it sounds childish even to her, and she takes a moment. she can't stop the few tears that leak out of her eyes.]

I don't want to lose you, too. How do you know you won't... How do you know you'll even remember?

Because I love you. Nothing can ever take that away.

[it's cheesy, but she genuinely means it...]

They can. They already have. [She thinks of Kitty.] I love you, I care about you more than I've ever cared about anyone before, but that doesn't... Sometimes that's not enough to fix everything.

I know. And I won't let it.

I love you. You... Meeting you is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I want to be with you forever. So I'll make that happen, as long as you'll have me.

...If you promise me that, I'll never stop waiting for you, but I don't - none of us know what's going to happen in the future. How can you know for sure we'll find a way?

I don't want... [She sucks in another shaky breath, biting her lip.] I don't want to sound like I don't trust you. I do. I love you. But I can't keep believing everything will end up fine when there's no evidence for it. More than just how we feel.

... I know. I understand. It's hard to believe in anything else when this is all we've seen for so long.

[She's going to just start stroking her hair again.]

I can't... give you any reason you'll like. But at home, love is stronger than even the gods. It will overcome anything in our way. So... I promise. Even if, when I restore my world, I have to mess it up and break it all again, I will come find you.

...He left me a message. He told me the same thing, told me he'd find me again no matter what. I know I should believe in him, believe in you, and I do, but I'm just—

[She takes a breath, wiping tears out of her eyes.]

I'm so scared. I don't know what I'd do if you weren't here. You're the only one who - understands.

... I get scared, too. I think about the same thing sometimes. I don't know what I'd do without you.

But I don't plan on going anywhere. I want to be with you, always.

[she takes a breath, but then continues on.]

Every night, I lay down and think about what they would do for ratings. What better drama then splitting up two people who love each other? I don't... Sometimes it feels inevitable. That's always how it ends. That's always how it's ended for both of us.

[she gives her hand a squeeze.]

I don't want to lose you, either. But it feels like that's all that's ever happened. Do you think I'm just being paranoid?

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