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...If you promise me that, I'll never stop waiting for you, but I don't - none of us know what's going to happen in the future. How can you know for sure we'll find a way?

I don't want... [She sucks in another shaky breath, biting her lip.] I don't want to sound like I don't trust you. I do. I love you. But I can't keep believing everything will end up fine when there's no evidence for it. More than just how we feel.

... I know. I understand. It's hard to believe in anything else when this is all we've seen for so long.

[She's going to just start stroking her hair again.]

I can't... give you any reason you'll like. But at home, love is stronger than even the gods. It will overcome anything in our way. So... I promise. Even if, when I restore my world, I have to mess it up and break it all again, I will come find you.

...He left me a message. He told me the same thing, told me he'd find me again no matter what. I know I should believe in him, believe in you, and I do, but I'm just—

[She takes a breath, wiping tears out of her eyes.]

I'm so scared. I don't know what I'd do if you weren't here. You're the only one who - understands.

... I get scared, too. I think about the same thing sometimes. I don't know what I'd do without you.

But I don't plan on going anywhere. I want to be with you, always.

[she takes a breath, but then continues on.]

Every night, I lay down and think about what they would do for ratings. What better drama then splitting up two people who love each other? I don't... Sometimes it feels inevitable. That's always how it ends. That's always how it's ended for both of us.

[she gives her hand a squeeze.]

I don't want to lose you, either. But it feels like that's all that's ever happened. Do you think I'm just being paranoid?

[She pauses, but shakes her head, lacing her fingers through Natalie's and squeezing back.]

It's not paranoia. It's protecting yourself. It's all we've ever known... So of course we'll think it will happen again. And if we prepare, it won't hurt as bad.

... It does make sense. But... It hasn't happened yet.

[she breathes in, and makes eye contact for the first time.]

But what if it does? I haven't seen anyone from Kyriakos for over a year. If it takes that long or even longer for us to find each other again... What then? What if you've moved on? What if we're both - different people by then, and it just isn't the same?

[if this were a less serious moment, nightingale would take a humorous stab at herself, because seriously, when has she ever moved on from anything, ever.]

Then I'll find you again, and fall for you again.

...I love you.

[She starts with, but then pauses.]

He... told me to find someone who could make me laugh the same way he did. Is it selfish if I - I don't know if I can do that? I... [For a moment, she struggles for the words to say this.] You know how it was for me back home. Even Henry, I only knew for a few months, and I'm missing most of those memories. Kyriakos was only a few months, too, even if it felt like much longer. But Winn... I knew him for over a year. Other than you, I'd been friends with him for longer than anyone else I've ever known. I loved him. How do I just...

[Keep going, keep meeting new people while knowing this could very well be the outcome she's met with again and again?]

It's not selfish.

[She shakes her head.]

You're looking out for yourself, right? You don't want to get hurt. And... I know he didn't want you to be hurt, either. It's a hard situation, and I don't think he'd want you to not get to know anyone else, but... It's not selfish to be hurt and want to protect yourself.

I guess I just... I don't know what to do. I just want it to stop hurting. I... I don't want to forget, but I want all of this to be over.

... I know.

[And she wants to give her some kind of magical feel-good solution, but... She doesn't have one. She doesn't have anything that can help, because the Atroma are huge assholes and she just doesn't have anything that can make that better.]

...Sorry.

[She mutters again. It's not anything Nightingale's said or done - she just isn't good at talking about stuff like this. Maybe that's why a little bit of weakness comes out, and her voice breaks as it does.]

I know - I know you don't have control over it, but - please don't leave. I need you, I-I can't do this alone.

I won't.

[She means it, too.]

As long as you want me with you, I'll be here.

...Okay.

[All of a sudden, it's like she doesn't have a choice but to believe that. She wouldn't know what to do if she didn't trust it. The idea of them being separated is almost surreal.]

They brought us here together and gave us both our memories back for a reason. Maybe... They'll keep us together for that same reason.

Maybe we're just that good a romance?

[It's a half-hearted attempt at lightening the mood, but you know what, she does want to believe it.]

I wish it were that simple.

[She hopes it will be, but after everything...]

... Me too.

[She lowers her head, resting her forehead against Natalie's.]

[After a moment, she leans forwards to kiss her, but it's lighter and softer than it normally is.]

Maybe we can blow up the Marsiva and everything will be fixed.

[She kisses back with a small smile.]

... Should I mention that I've been making plans about that?

I would totally love to hear your plans.

[She doesn't sound as enthusiastic as she usually would about this (Opal, please) but she definitely sounds interested.]

[this is why she loves you.]

I should probably start with... It's going to sound crazy, but I'm pretty sure the Marsiva is alive.

...Go on.

It's from before, when they did the heart game things... Our augments glitched out, and we could see things... And then our memories of it were erased afterwards. I wrote it all down, thankfully.

But one of the things I noticed then was that there was a weird energy to the ship. The ship felt alive, apparently. So, if the ship is alive, and sustained by that flow of energy... If I can find that energy again, and tamper with it, we can kill it.

What do you think killing it would do? If that's our ticket to the Atroma, would it send us all home, or...

[Would they just be floating in space regardless of whether the Atroma were around?

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