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Question meme! You ask me a question, I answer and ask a question in return, you answer and ask a question in return, and so on.

This is for all my characters across all games, so!

Kyr, Court, Drift Fleet:
Aiya/Gray Nightingale

Kyr:
Aria/Citrine

Drift Fleet:
Miah Lanbatal

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maybe i will

natalie -> nightingale: ALSO A GROSS AMOUNT OF LOVE AND AFFECTION. nightingale is one of the two people she thinks she can always count and depend on in kyr (the other being silver, since he's the only other original henwen who's still in play). the other side of that is that it's hard to think of nightingale without this persistent terror that the other shoe is going to drop and she's going to get tired of her, or grow apart from her, or leave her in a way she can't control (like going home or getting mirror dropped). without her realizing it, this is kind of leading to her subconsciously assuming they don't have a chance to soften the blow if something like that does happen. she wasn't lying when she said she hopes she can go home with nightingale, but she's not counting on it being possible because she's 2 pessimistic 4 life, etc. it might go without saying, but she also worries about nightingale a lot - about the baggage her parents left her with, about her self esteem and self worth problems (even if she's gotten better in that regard), about her apparent willingness to die for the greater good... the list goes on.

natalie -> citrine!! ALSO COMPLICATED. she really, really likes citrine, but she's still in the stage with her where she's afraid to fully open up to her. she reminds her a little of aventurine, and unfortunately that means natalie projects a little - she's afraid of trusting and depending on citrine too much because she reminds her a lot of a person who's left her not once, but twice. she's pretty afraid, again, that if she lets herself get close to citrine that she'll leave. she also thinks citrine is a much better person than she is, so she's scared that one day citrine is going to realize that's true and hate her. oops.

tl;dr natalie is still terrified of interpersonal relationships and emotional closeness

OKAY NOW FAVORITE MEMORIES. in kyr it's probably getting together with nightingale or aventurine coming back from echo!napping (though that's pretty soured by the fact that she got mirror dropped shortly afterwards, it was really happy at the time). as for canon, i'm gonna say henry reassuring her that he won't leave her no matter what happens while they're at a school dance, because he's the first person who had ever said something like that to her and it was incredibly ~*~romantic and meaningful.

i thought of a return question and then completely forgot to put it in, smh self!! ANYWAYS, the ideal character development you'd get to have for nightingale and citrine!

Edited 2015-12-10 06:26 (UTC)

CONFIDENCE for both of them, really.

Like, Nightingale is honestly pretty close to what I want. Right now, she's learning how to have confidence in herself. She is still working with the idea of being able to be loved and it's doing wonders for her. I don't have any more specific ideas in store past 'more in this direction'. Letting her start to believe in her own strength and abilities would be nice, though! But that would take actually being able to accomplish something important with cleverness or magic.

Citrine, I'd like to have some kind of development where she is comfortable and able to assert that she is human, and for her to stop being scared of people who aren't animalpeople! Literally nothing can knock the justice out of her, though, so I'm not worried about that. But something that could bring it more like... to the forefront? Less saying "I'M A KNIGHT" and more... doing stuff with it. But that's so reliant on my own energy levels it's hard.

SO HOW IS NATALIE FEELING ABOUT GOING BACK TO NIGHTINGALE'S WORLD, especially as nightingale lives with yura still. give me the details. 8D

i mentioned before that she's not quite letting herself believe it'll actually happen, but if it did happen - she'd be overjoyed but super nervous, honestly, just because their worlds are so different. what if she can't get over the culture shock, what if she doesn't fit in, what if nobody likes her, etc etc!! she's also concerned about living arrangements, especially since nightingale is currently living with yura. she's very "oh god this is going to be super awkward for all of us isn't it".

the worst trauma games so far for both nightingale and citrine!!

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