experiencepoints | IC contact post!

Like I said, I wasn't close to her. I was more worried about her creepy asshole teammates. Is this about Blade?

i mean we talked but
i'm just curious

i probably disappointed him
didn't want to do the same to others

I doubt you disappointed him. The castle we were at, Kyriakos, was hell. People were tortured and killed on a weekly basis. People change a lot there, and quickly. The amnesia and the pressure work together like that. I can't speak for him, but from what I'd guess. If you're not like Willow, it's because you haven't had to go through that sort of thing. And as someone who cares about Willow, he'd be happy about that.

["Tortured and killed". Well, she didn't experience it on a weekly basis, so maybe she actually has it better off than this Willow girl. In any case, it takes several minutes for the replies to come through.]

i had my heart cut out
while i was still awake to see it
and it messed me up like really bad

i guess i was afraid that would make me a different person than everyone expected
but maybe not if that's the case

I can't speak for him, but for but for me? I drank poison to save someone else and died from that. Another time, I died from drowning. That's just the deaths, not counting the near misses. I'm from a world where death isn't really a thing. I'm probably the only person from my world who is actually afraid of dying. So... I understand, is what I'm trying to get at. But I don't think he'd mind that. If you'd like to be friends with him, he won't be bothered by what has or hasn't happened to you, I think.

[You died so much more, you hurt so much more, I don't have the right to be upset about my own. Alex's old intrusive mantra starts back up.]

okay
i mean it's not like i'm trying to make friendship bracelets with him but
idk it's nice to know it's not like
going to be a big problem

thanks
and i'm sorry to bring this all up

[Not as planned... but Nightingale is KY enough that it never occurs to her that she might have started that in Alex. Whoops.]

It won't be. And don't worry. It's kind of nice to know someone else here understands, you know? If you ever need to talk about it or just get drunk for it, I'm pretty much always open.

IC contact post!

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject