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[IC contact post for Drift Fleet!]

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[monolike]

It sounds like it. But, I mean, it's not something you have to figure out right away anyhow, right? There's no hurry. You guys can take your time and talk it out.

[experiencepoints]

Taking our time in places like these leads to someone vanishing. Or finding someone else. Or the Atroma deciding it'll be good for ratings if they blow up half our ships.

[monolike]

That last one sounds pretty extreme. [He's hoping it's not realistically extreme.] But if there's no need to take things slow...I mean, is there anything you want to ask her right now? Or tell her? You thought she couldn't love you, and now you know she has.

[experiencepoints]

No. She loves the Nightingale who was at the castle much longer than I was. That Nightingale has a lot more memories of home, and knows a lot more about who we were and are than I do. That Nightingale might be a completely different person, since who knows what I remembered there?

... When I think of how many memories I must have regained in that time... Natalie probably knows more about me than I do, now. It's a bit... scary.

[monolike]

Scary that she knows so much about you? Or scary that she knows more about you than you do?

[experiencepoints]

... Both?

[monolike]

[Yeah, that's fair.]

Well...do you think it could be kind of nice, too?

[experiencepoints]

[She actually has to take a moment to process what he just said.]

How?

[monolike]

I don't know what it's like to not remember things about myself, but sometimes Mikleo knows things about me before I've even figured out what's bothering me. It's really comforting to have someone you know will be on your side know so much about you. That's how it feels for me, anyway.

[experiencepoints]

I can get that for feelings, but... This isn't just a matter of understanding someone. It's about knowing more of my life than I do.

[monolike]

Would she tell you everything if you asked her?

[experiencepoints]

Well, probably...

[monolike]

What if you started with that? I know it's not the same, but would it make you feel better to at least know about it?

[experiencepoints]

... Maybe? It really... depends on what it is I don't know.

[monolike]

There's only one way to find that out, though.

[experiencepoints]

You can understand that I'm a little terrified of finding that out, right?

[monolike]

Yeah, but I mean. Do you want to avoid her forever? You said it's scary that she knows more than you, but you're also scared of finding out. It sounds like no matter what you do, you'll be afraid of her, but you also sound like you really like her and would like to spend time with her.

[experiencepoints]

... Yeah. That is about the size of it.

[every option is scary, therefore i will do nothing.]

[monolike]

Would avoiding her make you feel less afraid?

[experiencepoints]

... I... guess? Avoiding things that are frightening does tend to make one less afraid.

[monolike]

Maybe for the time being. But it'll still eat away at you.

[Maybe something more relative would help.] For a long while, I had to avoid a certain person back home because he was too powerful for me. It's my job to quell him, but every time we came across him I had to run because I didn't have the strength. If I'm being honest though, I was afraid. I'm still afraid. And the strange thing is that he's never come purposefully to attack me after every battle; it's always something I've brought to him.

Even though I know he won't come for me without provocation, I'm still scared because I know I'll have to face him eventually. I don't know if it's the same as what's happening with you, but I don't think fear can be so easily dismissed or ignored.

[experiencepoints]

I would trade you in a heartbeat. I have some people I have to kill, too, even though I will never be their match in strength.

[it's amazing how casually she can say that she has to murder someone.]

But... That kind of fear is different, you know? I can deal with mortal danger, I... I can't deal with disappointing her. In the first place, she knows I have feelings for multiple people, so there's no way it could work out for us without hurting her, and that's the last thing I want.

So, since I can't deal with that, I just won't. Problem solved.

[monolike]

[Yeah no wincing away from that 'KILL' thing since he hasn't settled on that just yet. God, people are so quick to resort to murder...]

But how do you know that's what she wants if you're too afraid to talk to her about it?

[experiencepoints]

[in my defense, she's killed me twice, it would only be fair.]

Would you want to date someone who's in love with three different people at once? Love is... supposed to be something more special than that. Someone who gives it out so cheaply, you'd never be able to trust them to remain faithful.

[monolike]

I'm sorry, but I don't believe that at all. Love isn't a finite resource. I believe that someone can love as many people as they want. If a person wants to dedicate herself to just one person to show her faithfulness then that's up to her and whoever she's with, but I don't think loving multiple people is a sign of weak or insincere feelings.