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[ … wait ]

[ WAIT WHAT THIS IS NOT WHAT SHE WAS EXPECTING NIGHTINGALE TO SAY ]

I … er … [ excuse her for a moment, nightingale. clears her throat with a cough. ] Er, yes. It's perfectly normal.

[WOW

looks away again]

Really? With that reaction, it doesn't sound like it.

It's called surprise, Nightingale; not a lack of conviction.

[ runs a hand through her hair, tugging lightly at her ahoge ]

It is perfectly normal to have feelings for more than one person, just as it is also perfectly normal to only have feelings for one person.

...

Just like that, huh. And you're the second type.

... I am, yes.

[ softening some, now, and dropping her hand back down to the ground. ]

What's this about?

.... So in the end, it's still hopeless for me, huh.

[sighs, still not looking at bluebird]

You... remember my memories about Yura, right?

"Hopeless" … seems an odd way to put it, if I may say so. [ and then, because she's aware that could be misinterpreted, she quickly adds: ] You still have other hopes, after all.

And yes, I do remember her. The lady you like, yes?

[just. not commenting on the first part. this is too embarrassing send help.]

Yeah. There's... someone else in the castle I like now, too. But I can't do anything.... It would be unfair to do anything while I still have feelings for others, I thought. Until Magpie started saying all those weird things.

[never mind that it's not a castle anymore. shhhh.]

It would only be unfair if you were dishonest about your feelings.

It's still weird...

Well, is that not natural? You've carried this expectation for years—this understanding that you're only ever supposed to feel for one other at a time.

Challenges to world views like that are always difficult.

To be honest, I was hoping you'd tell me otherwise so I'd have an excuse to not do anything.

I'm not much in the business of making life easy for people.

[ she teases, gently. ]

It's what I get for asking advice from an old lady.

[ did you miss being on the ground, Nightingale ]

[ because that is where Bluebird immediately tries to shove you ]

[WORTH IT]

Old I may be, but I'm still as fresh as a spring flower!

A preserved one, maybe.

A fresh one, I said. Clean your eyes.

Positively fossilized.

[i'm going to be destroyed for this but it's worth it]

[ that was supposed to be ears!! ]

[ actually she doesn't respond to that ]

[...

did i fuck up]

Bluebird...?

— ah? It's nothing, it's nothing.

[ SMILES reassuringly ]

... Are you sure?

[sad trivia: i have gotten enough memories of being a terrified child back that i've actually become pretty damn perceptive of people being in a bad mood or upset.

i mean i'm still a total KY who doesn't understand feelings right, but.]

Yyyyyes …

… Well.

[ waves a hand! ]

Your comment of fossils just reminded me of somewhat unsavoury, that's all. It's really nothing to worry about.