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experiencepoints) wrote2015-08-20 09:21 pm
experiencepoints) wrote2015-08-20 09:21 pm
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Trivpos: yeah it's more fucking
Regained: Day 165
Nyssa, Hearts
You're aware, on some level, that using sex as a replacement for your inability to feel emotions is probably unhealthy. On the other hand... With your ability to feel gone, it's really hard to care. And, well. Yura's incredibly attractive, so it's not like you don't like it.
Still, since you've started sleeping with her, you've learned a few things. You've learned to see the tells of when she's in the mood- She drops her gaze, and her tail starts flicking around. She's learned to tell when you're in the mood, as well, though you have no idea what your own tells are. She's an aggressive lover, and likes dominating and pushing you to your limits, but for all of her talk about being a sadist, she honestly seems to enjoy the post-coital cuddling more. And when you get your period halfway through one time, she nearly falls over laughing. (You understand her well, but her sense of humor can still be a mystery to you sometimes.)
Sometimes, with the rush of endorphins and your pounding heart, you start to think you're feeling something again towards Yura, but you can never quite remember how that feels again afterwards, so you don't say anything. Even without those feelings, there's something about the look in her eyes that captivates you... The way she looks at you, that makes your heart pound just a little bit harder. In that sense, it's almost a relief when she uses a blindfold, because then you don't have to think about those feelings again. Sometimes, you think you hear her whispering something, and your name, but you aren't quite sure.
You do wonder on occasion if you aren't doing enough, though. You try to do more for her, and occasionally she accepts, but more often she accepts in a way that leaves her dominant. Still, you're fine with that, even if you feel like you're being terribly selfish about it. You owe Yura so much, so you'll let her do whatever she wants with your body, and you enjoying it is a happy secondary effect.
Notes: This is a montage over a few months of Yura and Aiya banging. They're. Really, really into it.
Aiya is kind of do-M, but Yura is kind of do-S so it all works out. They swing from extremely vanilla to whips and blindfolds back and forth pretty fast, too.
They're in love with each other, except for Aiya's inability to have feelings right now, so oops.
also whoops turns out Aiya's still fucked up.
Regained: Day 165
Nyssa, Hearts
You're aware, on some level, that using sex as a replacement for your inability to feel emotions is probably unhealthy. On the other hand... With your ability to feel gone, it's really hard to care. And, well. Yura's incredibly attractive, so it's not like you don't like it.
Still, since you've started sleeping with her, you've learned a few things. You've learned to see the tells of when she's in the mood- She drops her gaze, and her tail starts flicking around. She's learned to tell when you're in the mood, as well, though you have no idea what your own tells are. She's an aggressive lover, and likes dominating and pushing you to your limits, but for all of her talk about being a sadist, she honestly seems to enjoy the post-coital cuddling more. And when you get your period halfway through one time, she nearly falls over laughing. (You understand her well, but her sense of humor can still be a mystery to you sometimes.)
Sometimes, with the rush of endorphins and your pounding heart, you start to think you're feeling something again towards Yura, but you can never quite remember how that feels again afterwards, so you don't say anything. Even without those feelings, there's something about the look in her eyes that captivates you... The way she looks at you, that makes your heart pound just a little bit harder. In that sense, it's almost a relief when she uses a blindfold, because then you don't have to think about those feelings again. Sometimes, you think you hear her whispering something, and your name, but you aren't quite sure.
You do wonder on occasion if you aren't doing enough, though. You try to do more for her, and occasionally she accepts, but more often she accepts in a way that leaves her dominant. Still, you're fine with that, even if you feel like you're being terribly selfish about it. You owe Yura so much, so you'll let her do whatever she wants with your body, and you enjoying it is a happy secondary effect.
Notes: This is a montage over a few months of Yura and Aiya banging. They're. Really, really into it.
Aiya is kind of do-M, but Yura is kind of do-S so it all works out. They swing from extremely vanilla to whips and blindfolds back and forth pretty fast, too.
They're in love with each other, except for Aiya's inability to have feelings right now, so oops.
also whoops turns out Aiya's still fucked up.